Through Puke & Pee

By: Fela M'tima




This week by plane, car, and train-to say the least, were all terrifying. One of the highlights of my trip was seeing my "endosister" who is my endotwin, the one and only- Autumn Smith. Many know how our friendship began, which is very similar to how many endosister's become friends, through the large online community. What I didn't expect is that I actually met my new, best friend. This short and beyond sweet visit solidified our one of a kind friendship. 

We had a 3 hour car ride ahead of us from Chicago to East Galesburg, IL. This turned into a 6 hour "puke" and "pee" fest. I won't go into many details, but when you're peeing in a Gatorade bottle because an endo mass is protruding into your bladder and the woman next to you is holding a cold rag over her head while she's driving and she's already puked twice, you have this strange sense of camaraderie. I didn't know how intense our bond was until we actually got to spend a few days together. The comfort I found in feeling each others endobelly's is precious. Waking up and both knowing we had at least a few hours until the meds and caffeine took affect and only then were we ready for the day.

I had never felt so comfortable and happy being sick. I had this buddy who would sit with me wherever we went, a buddy who could force me to take meds because she *knew* I needed to, even when I was stubborn. Everything I felt, she felt or at least knew what it felt like. Even when our visit came to a close and I was crying thinking about my train ride home, she knew how to encourage me to keep going. Through chest pains, anxiety, and my ovarian cyst, she knew I was going to be okay, because "we are superhuman." (A matching tattoo we actually got an hour before I left)

I would definitely do anything to be sitting on the couch with her right now, watching our favorite shows and talking through them. Watching her perfectly peel pomegranates while we talked about the strong issues of stage four endometriosis and laughing through all the bullshit. Our bond is one of a kind and I feel so blessed to have found Autumn. There are so many different kinds of soul mates in this big, beautiful world we all live in. I really found mine in it's own shape and form. I feel like I have a sense of what it is like to have a twin. It's a bond that I will forever hold close to my heart.